May - June

The end of June has come, and my emotions are all over the place!

 May: nothing much happened in May. 

But my baby turned 1 😊👶🎊🎉🎈

June: I finished my papers this month :)

Submitted and everything! And so the waiting game begins.!!!

I've pondered on a few things:

1st- I was talking to a friend about the mission life when he all of a sudden asked

"Is your heart fully set on the mission field as much as your mind is?"

2nd- was a question that arose in Family Home Evening, "How does faith in Jesus Christ naturally lead to repentance?"

As I've pondered on these things, my conclusions came to this.

My heart was never fully engaged in doing the Lords Work. It was all in my head. So I questioned why I wanted to go. My head told me because its the right thing to do to make my family happy. And then after a little prayer of faith, my heart told me I want to go on a mission because its my way of giving back to the savior after all the blessings he has blessed me with for 19 years. And because I know that the gospel provides the eternal truths, and that EVERY soul is great in the sight of god, it's important for me to let everyone know that. To come unto Christ. So that they know he is there, and that he always has been. That the savior loves us and he lives. That we can be forgiven of our sins because he provided the way. 

Faith in Jesus Christ naturally leads to repentance. 

Here's what I think this means. When we have faith in Christ, it means to believe that he does live and when we believe that he does live, we believe that he really did atone for our sins. Chris shared a scripture that also goes with my explanation "faith without works is dead". When we have TRUE faith in Jesus Christ, we trust that repentance is truly a gift from god, hence why we repent. We have to act upon it. Something like that. I seem to cant get it from my head outta my mouth!