SEPT-OCT-NOV

SEPTEMBER

Lala & Jas left to the Philippines MTC this month! I was way sad about this! I think it was more towards the fact that I'd have no one to be on the buzz with about going on a mission! Oh and of course happy 5th spiritual-heaven birthday nena...... Not a day goes by where I don't miss you or I'm not thinking of you. It's crazy that it's been like that for five years!!! She's my best fraaaand.. On another note .... TIMI FO'I FETI hahaha

OCTOBER

nothing but a birthday this month!!

My brother's 15th birthday. Too bad it was on a Sunday... Are you kidding me?! A holy birthday?! The besssssst! I remember mum and dad was on bad terms after a stupid argument..... The moment we sang happy bday to Nio I started crying. 1. I love him. 2. I was upset that my parents didn't make this day better for him all because they weren't really talking to each other. But let's leave it there. And just say now ..... The home is back to normal. Love At Home.

NOVEMBER

another bday month and HOPEFULLY a going-to-Provo-MTC month! 

Firrrrsssst kick it off with a HAPPY BDAY LUPE. my baby sus bag. Jokes. My baby sister! She turned 6! Crazy we had dinner with dad and his two counsellors nusi, and manu and their families. (CRAZY FACT: nusi' wife is also named lupe.... And her birthday was ALSO on the same day as my sister's!... Wicked cool!) and My uncle came, and Lupes namesake. And the missionaries! Elder finau and elder Niu'unga. These guys are dope assssss! Yet to have a photo with them though. The Sunday coming ..... Dad was released. Woah what happened there?! He was released from Bishop :) six years of service and learning and growing ...... Oh wait still gotta do those anyway lol. It was great. It's been great. And we look forward as a family to creating more great memories. Our new bishop is nusi! He is THE man. Straight up! I'm supposed to be leaving to Provo this month but I STILL don't have my visa and other documents. WAAAAAAAAY too depressed on this. I just wanna GERARAAAA HEAAAA YOU KNOW WHAT IM SAYING?!?!

Anyway.... Here's a photo of me elder fisiitalia and elder finau. When elder fisiitalia came to the ward he was super shy he wouldn't say hi he wouldn't look at me, not just me but anyone else in the ward. This was so new to me cos Usually every missionary is "out there"! I thought to myself maybe he was just like me when I was little.... Someone needs to start the convo for me to get comfortable. So I did just that, starting with the little things.... Every time I saw him I would say hi! I would shake his hand. I would say bye if I saw him leaving. Weeks later I thought it was useless. I saw no improvement UNTIL ..... That's right, until one day I didn't see him but he happened to see me and say bye to me! And then he asked me how I was!!!!! OMG That was so cool! He never smiles and then when I took this photo ..... Walaaaaaa a handsome smile! Haha he became my favourite missionary reasons that people will never know lie behind that fact. (It's nothing secretive) it's just ..... Pointless to explain on here lol oh how I miss Fisi! Finau? He'll get a blog entry in due time :) I love missionaries and missionary work.! A quote I once heard from my cousin, "missionary work is like the bloodline of the gospel. If that bloodline is not flowing the church will stop growing"

July - August

4th July:

Happy birthday mum. I love this woman so much though I may not say it or act like I do, but trust me when I say it's all in the heart. ❤️❤️

28th July:

I'll remember this day for as long as I live, when I die, when I'm in the celestial world... Always! Haha The day I opened my mission call. I remember feeling so excited yet nervous. Excited for it was a day I was looking forward to basically my whole life. Nervous in case I was called to the Wellington mission despite saying I wouldn't mind being called there earlier haha. I remember specifically the moment I read those words..... Actually nah haha I saw "Provo missionary training center " first and I was over the moon! Then I saw "December 1st" and slowly my buzz was buzzing off THEN I read it ..... "Dear Sister Fakaosilea, You are hereby called to serve as a missionary of the church of Jesus Christ Of Latter-Day Saints. You are assigned to labor in the Thailand Bangkok Mission." I use to watch prospective missionaries open their mission calls on YouTube all the time, and would even tear up! I was so sure that I would cry when I opened my call. Well I wanted to, but I didn't. It was that moment that I learnt that the spirit isn't always in liquid. It was simply there in my heart full of gratitude. Yes, grateful that I was going out of NZ, but more grateful to know that the Lord had chosen me to serve his children in Thailand. I was Grateful for the gospel in my life. Grateful to have a testimony to share with the people. I remember the moment I read those words, I loved the people of Thailand in an instant! My heart was already with them. But that had taught me that I should love everyone around me first. My neighbours. The ones who are much nearer to me. The ones that I know. The ones that I see everyday yet never talk to. What a lesson, what a blessing.

7th August

The ultimate Tempe experience. Too sacred for me to write it on a blog. Instead, it goes in my journal. All I can say, is that the spirit was strong felt. The experience was overall sacred. And I loved it

May - June

The end of June has come, and my emotions are all over the place!

 May: nothing much happened in May. 

But my baby turned 1 😊👶🎊🎉🎈

June: I finished my papers this month :)

Submitted and everything! And so the waiting game begins.!!!

I've pondered on a few things:

1st- I was talking to a friend about the mission life when he all of a sudden asked

"Is your heart fully set on the mission field as much as your mind is?"

2nd- was a question that arose in Family Home Evening, "How does faith in Jesus Christ naturally lead to repentance?"

As I've pondered on these things, my conclusions came to this.

My heart was never fully engaged in doing the Lords Work. It was all in my head. So I questioned why I wanted to go. My head told me because its the right thing to do to make my family happy. And then after a little prayer of faith, my heart told me I want to go on a mission because its my way of giving back to the savior after all the blessings he has blessed me with for 19 years. And because I know that the gospel provides the eternal truths, and that EVERY soul is great in the sight of god, it's important for me to let everyone know that. To come unto Christ. So that they know he is there, and that he always has been. That the savior loves us and he lives. That we can be forgiven of our sins because he provided the way. 

Faith in Jesus Christ naturally leads to repentance. 

Here's what I think this means. When we have faith in Christ, it means to believe that he does live and when we believe that he does live, we believe that he really did atone for our sins. Chris shared a scripture that also goes with my explanation "faith without works is dead". When we have TRUE faith in Jesus Christ, we trust that repentance is truly a gift from god, hence why we repent. We have to act upon it. Something like that. I seem to cant get it from my head outta my mouth! 

APRIL

Usually, every blog is drafted to make sense for myself. This one though.. Is Written through feelings, inspiration, and a heart because April has been amazing thus far.

I don't know how to express my love I have for the gospel. It gives me happiness.... True happiness. Happiness to me was also hanging out with my YSA sisters the past 2weeks. 

The first one at this cottage evening that was beyond hilarious because of what I believe would've been our attitude towards the fireside.

2nd was our activity at JUMP. I must say I think we're getting much closer.... Idon't  know but I like the feeling I have when we're all together :)

3rd, chris came back! Honestly missed this guy so much. Either him or his words of advice haha.

February-March

February-March

This will probably be my favourite blog. It's been such a good ride.

Although theres a few skeletons in my closet, ill cope.

Well at least try to! 

Feb 19th.

Happy birthday dad.

I know I've been a disappointment a lot of my lifetime, but I promise you what the future holds is better.... If only you would look that way. Happy birthday.

March 6th.

CHIEFSMANA

So I met MALKAI FEKITOA, funny thing though, I asked him to hold my chiefs flag... He said "sorry nah sorry". BUT HEY I understand his loyalty to his team. Good on him, I guess.

CHIEFSMANA BABY

March 19th.

Happy birthday Lala (Zion)

My sister is now half way to 40 hahaha. As cliche as it sounds, I don't know where I'd be without her today. I've never had a friend as loving & caring as her. In fact she's not even a friend. She's family. Loyalty is thicker than blood.

March 20th.

Polyfest.

So it was my little sister Mila's first time joining polyfest this year. I'm so proud of her she was super cute & their hard work payed off. 3rd place milolua & 1st place lakalaka. Malie southern cross.

March 24th.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME

This was my 18th bday cake yes but I didn't get a snap of this years cake..... Oh well. a little editing shouldn't hurt. I'm grateful to be alive, to have the gospel active in my life. & to have my family & friends that I have today. Alofas.

So that concludes Feb-Mar. I trust the world is fine, but could be better. Stop wishing, and just act upon 'it'. I summed up everything that happened. It's been a real good month. REAL GOOD month. I look forward to what's in store for April!!

NO FOOLS.

#JOURNEYFORWARDWITHSELA

January-February

We meet again my non-existent blog followers! 

How are you? Good? Cooool. 

(Me and Pesi on ball night at conference)

Jan-Feb have been so chill. Just got back from the NZ YSA conference in Auckland. Talk about 'SOLIIIIIID'. Already looking forward to the next one! I'm still working on my mission papers. I just want to send it out already but that's not how it goes. I learnt so much over the weekend! Real life is eternal life. Learnt to not just be a 'hearer' of the words of god, but also a 'doer'!! 

Made life-long friends, more spiritual growth. I love this gospel twice more than I did before. And I thought that was all my love.....pshhht. Yeah right. 

(New friends :) )

I have a testimony of the church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. It is true and it contains the fullness of the everlasting gospel. It was restored through a prophet of god, Joseph smith....under the direction of our loving Heavenly Father. Prayer is real and I know if we always look up to Heavenly Father in prayer, he does hear and answer them and he will bless us accordingly. I testify to you that the scriptures are true! They are the word of god. I know that my saviour loves each and every one of us. 

Stay safe 'everyone'. It's a cruel world out there. Think, why do we do what we do? Think, is it really what we determine to be success and happiness?

Xoxoxo

Keeping up with sela

SHE'S HERE! 2015 IS FINALLY HERE Welcome to my non-existent blog followers. I love you all. I really do. All 0 of you. You are more than welcome to journey forward with me into 2015 with a good start and hopefully an awesome ending! In saying that ....... Let me take a selfie

The past few days with the extended family has been HECCCCTIKKKK. Talk about awesome summer vibes. Chilling all day and blasting music, poolside chillin. Couldn't ask for any better day. And then CHURCH! that was so good. Like, so good. I would say "2014, come back here and give me some love" but 2015 is already showing me that :) I came across this one hell of an awesome song, it talks about how some family members can't accept ones partner. All he asks is to let them be. This makes me wonder...... Journey forward with Sela